Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Finding my future daughter's name and my current packing progress

I am being such a bad procrastinator right now. I've done basically nothing since I've gotten home. But I cuddled with the babies, and I grilled myself a hamburger (I'll have to store the grill in a closet at my new place, so I needed to use it one last time - although it's semiportable so maybe I could take it outside somewhere), and I played on the internet, and I spent the last 45 minutes researching my new #1 name for my future daughter! I discovered it from a song that I've listened to about five hundred times before but never paid attention to the title or lyrics before, and now that I've read the lyrics I love it perhaps even more. I better have a daughter first because my list of girl baby names has always been about five times longer than with boy names, and when I picture myself having a baby and being a new mom, it's always with a daughter. And besides, now I have her name all picked out! :)

I think I'm going to stay up most of the night. I kind of accepted the fact an hour ago, which is why I'm sitting down again. I brewed up some coffee and I've already had a cup. And I have my laundry ready to go in the big basket, but I just need to actually get up and take it downstairs. Which I'll do as soon as I finish with this. Then I need to 1) finish packing the kitchen, 2) put aside all the stuff I want to take over separately on Thursday morning, 3) pack the bathroom, 4) pack all my clothes, 5) then pack all the random little things that are hanging around, 6) clean the bathroom and especially the tub, oh and the kitchen as well. Then maybe I'll shower before I go to sleep for a little while on the couch.

Tomorrow I will 1) go the alderman's office to get the no parking signs and also permit parking passes for visitors (I ran out of time today cause I actually had to do stuff at work as I won't be in again until Friday at lunch), 2) go to new apartment to put up the signs in front of the building, 3) get big black garbage bags for my couch and chair pillows and bed pillows and for anything else left over, 4) meet The Queen up at the UHaul place around 1:30 or 2, 5) get some drinks for everyone who's coming to help me. And the move-out is being moved up in time now. The Meat, Freckles and Swedish Meatball will get here probably by 3, and The Queen will already be here and one of his sons might come, and Asparagus is coming at I think 4 - he's the big muscle so the really heavy stuff will wait for him.

So okay, I think I'm feeling good for the moment. And when everything is all done we'll park the UHaul next door and then I'll let James and Emmalove out of the bathroom to an empty apartment so they can see that everything is gone and realize that we're moving again, and have some kitten closure, and then we'll just wait for The German. Oh and I need to put something in the bathroom that Emma can hide in because she'll be so scared hearing so many strangers in the apartment. Maybe I'll just open one of the cabinet doors and put a blanket inside so she can burrow into it.

I think that's it. I can't think of anything else. Tomorrow night I'm sleeping at The German's and then going early to my new place to get the keys, and the new bed is being delivered in the afternoon, and I'll hang up the shower curtain and put out toilet paper and do a little cleaning and then wait for everyone to help me unload the UHaul. I'm so nervous though about a couple of the heavy things getting up the stairs! I have this armoire and it is so ridiculously heavy. I really am worried that we won't be able to get it up the stairs. I can barely lift one side off the ground for two seconds! Okay but I'll worry about all that tomorrow night. Right now it's just the packing and loading part that I need to focus on!

Oh and just one other thing that I'm worried about - the UHaul. I called five or six places today that didn't have any of the trucks available, and then I called this other place and she said they had all sizes of the trucks available. I told her everyone else was out of trucks and that I was in love with her because I was getting so worried, and when I asked her why they had so many but everyone else was booked, she didn't know. And I know that sometimes people have had problems with UHaul cause the trucks weren't there when they went there, so I'm not going to be completely comfortable until I have that damn truck in my possession. But she gave me my confirmation number, and told me I could pick it up anytime tomorrow, and she also reserved the dollies and blankets and all for me, so I'm just going to pray that it'll all be there when The Queen and I get there tomorrow. Otherwise I think I'll burst into tears and The Queen isn't good with girls crying and I think he'll want to run away.

I wanted to post a very erotic image here of what is on my mind besides all the packing, but blogger isn't complying so it will just have to wait for another day.

Enough procrastinating, I'll get started on everything. Wish me luck!!! :)

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Written by Caterpillar :: 5/30/2006 11:38:00 PM :: ::


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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi