Wednesday, May 10, 2006

An evil thief and fishing, among other things

What do I say about my day today? It was a lot of different stuff, and it all tired me out!

So here's a quick summary. I made it to the volunteer meeting a little late (which is fine because there are about 50 women there every time) and first handed over a bunch of checks and what not to another girl in my chapter so she can deposit them, and we talked briefly about our next meeting and what to do with the board and all that. Then I went into the meeting and sat and took notes like a good girl, and also looked around the room at all the middle-aged and older women, and heard some of them in the back by me quietly critizing the job one woman is doing at planning a big event, and I was reminded of how much I don't fit in there, and how much I hate snippy comments. It was easy for these women to criticize, but I don't see them up there chairing a whole big event. But enough about that, because it's not worth my time thinking about.

I got to work a little before noon and chatted with everyone for awhile, and The Meat, The Queen, Freckles and I all made plans to go fishing in the mid-afternoon. Then my brother called and he had gotten out of the seminar a little early so I walked down to his hotel and took a couple pictures of the amazingly gorgeous lounge area (picture of ceiling at left), and then we went to Corner Bakery for lunch. I actually only got an orange juice because I had a bit of a stomach ache from eating a corn muffin earlier. Anyway, we took our time there and chatted about tons of things, and I was so happy and consciously thinking at times about how much I loved being there with my brother! Then we went back to his hotel, he picked up his suitcase, and I walked him up to the L so he could give me his card after he went through - it has $4 still on it, so of course I can use that!

A block later I looked in my purse. I don't know what made me look, but I think I felt that something was missing because I just had to check. And my wallet was nowhere to be found! I looked all around and under everything about three times, and then called my boss so he could check for my wallet on or around my desk. No wallet there. I called my brother and asked him whether I ever had him hold my wallet, and had him look through his stuff. No wallet there either. Fuck!

I went back to my office and called first the hotel and got some completely uncaring guy on the line, who reported that no wallet had been turned in. Then I called Corner Bakery and they also hadn't had any wallets turned in. Fuck fuck fuck! I went down the hall to see if I had carried it down there sometime, as I sometimes do when I know I'm going out, but no wallet, and I was so dangerously close to crying. Freckles walked back to my desk with me and looked through my purse, too, and told me to call the credit card companies just in case.

I first called my bank and cancelled my debit card. They didn't show any action today, which I was so happy about. I don't really know the rules with regard to debit cards - whether the bank covers you at all. I don't think they do, but I also think that at least one bank out there does now, so maybe mine does too.

Anyway, then I called my credit card and someone had made three charges at a gas station and tried to use it in an ATM machine!!!! So some asshole took my wallet from whereever I must have left it, and instead of being a good human being and turning it in, tried to get free fucking cash, and made it so now I have to replace my driver's license, my attorney registration card, my sheriff's ID, my insurance card, dental card, bone marrow donor card, and all the little discount cards from various stores. I'm trying to remember whether there was anything else, but I think those were the big ones. At least there was only about $7 in it. But the asshole(s)! I felt so frustrated and so naked and also so mad at whoever this person was, or people were! I wish I could kick them in their fucking nuts with my cowgirl boots!

Right now I feel resigned and fine, but when I get thinking about it, I'm just angry that this person didn't have the decency to do the right thing. He or she just completely didn't care about the stress and inconvenience that the owner of the wallet would feel, and instead bought a free tank of gas and two $7.60 charges in an Amoco. And then the obviously stupid person tried to use the ATM machine when he had no idea what the PIN would be! I'm used to being a good person and trying to do the right thing as often as possible, and all my friends and people I love are that same way. So to experience this behavior that is so completely opposite just really disappoints and pisses me off!

Enough about that though. The German made me feel a little better while we were instant messaging, by pointing out that no one got hurt, and everything can be replaced. And then The Meat, The Queen, Freckles and I headed out to fish, and I love spending time with them, and I love the relaxation of fishing, and I loved getting away. And we had a pretty good fishing day! Freckles caught a rock bass and right after that The Queen caught a little baby Rock Bass (picture at right). I think I caught a goby sometime after that, and then Freckles hooked a huge fish! It was a Small-Mouth Bass and she reeled it in a ways and we all saw it flopping around and trying to get away, and it jumped out of the water or was jerked out of the water at one time, and then it got away. But it was huge! And then, less than ten minutes later I think I hooked the very same Small-Mouth Bass! I got to, for the first time ever, really be reeling in and fighting a big fish like a real fisherwoman! The Meat and The Queen were so excited and were on either side of me yelling out instructions - it was so funny now that I think about it! After reeling for forever, the fish got a little tired and wasn't swimming so much anymore and was right below us so we could all get a good look at him. He was gorgeous!!! The Meat decided that he'd try to pull him up but the fish got away when he tried (the line was really weak) - and before I could get a picture of him! But I swear, he was huge! The Queen thought maybe five pounds! And he was so pretty and impressive-looking! Freckles and I saw a lone big fish swim by awhile later and we're sure that it was the same guy! Anyway, after that we all caught a few more gobies, and luckily all of my very serious lectures to The Queen worked because he didn't viciously murder any of them, as he did last summer once. So I was very happy with him!

Oh and one other thing - a friend sent me ten of the most beautiful white tulips in a vase as a congratulations for my six months of no drinking! They're so pretty! Oh and they came with a bag of Lindt truffles, which was so good because I was craving a little chocolate tonight but I have no cash or debit or credit cards to buy anything with - so I got my craving satisfied :) So thank you - I loved the chocolates and just adore the flowers!!

Tomorrow I'm meeting Warsteiner sometime after work so I can get the keys to Florida and Asparagus's home from him, cause I'll be taking over the feeding and giving of love to their two kitties over the weekend! Warsteiner is also planning a little something of sorts for us and is going to grill or something like that, so we'll be eating dinner at Florida and Asparagus's, with Simon and Millie (the cats). It'll hopefully be fun, but I seriously can't believe that I ever was romantically interested in that guy. I'm going to blame it on the fact that I was constantly drinking and lonely and wanting to be in love. Luckily, I'm much more open-eyed now!

Okay, that's all! I know, this post ended up being ridiculously long, especially because I was going to keep it really short so I could go to bed sooner. But sometimes getting it all written out in detail really helps me, and I feel better now at just writing the whole story down.

Oh and also, I'm listening to the album Blue Valentine by Tom Waits right now (I was recently introduced to the guy by WDKY on his very first Musical Monday), and holy shit is it about the most fabulous album ever!!!! I almost don't want to go to bed because I want to keep listening to it for forever!

That's really all now! Except that I need to clean my place in the most serious way and I need to do laundry. Tomorrow I have to get it all completely cleaned even if I don't get to the laundry. So I promise myself now that I'll do it!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Written by Caterpillar :: 5/10/2006 11:45:00 PM :: ::


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I'm a 30-year-old sometimes girl and sometimes woman living in Chicago. Over the past year I have faced my biggest demon and won, and as a result I have hope again for wonderful and fabulous things to happen! I'm still learning, growing and always trying to improve myself, but I absolutely love life and think I'm very close to becoming a real butterfly!!!
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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi