My first Musical Monday!
So this was a terribly hard choice as to my first song, but in the end I chose one of my favorite songs to listen to: 17 Again by the Eurythmics. I've always liked the song, and three years ago when I first learned how to download music it was on my immediate list of songs to download and subsequently it was moved to one of the first spots on my Favorites playlist on the iPod.
Sometime recently I realized that the song has taken on a sort of new meaning for me but it took me awhile to remember where it came from. Whenever I listened to the song I would feel myself coming out of a sort of fog or bad time and into such hope and light - so even though I would never ever want to actually be 17 again, the song is now to me a sort of power song - a coming out of dark into the light kind of song.
Oh and that alternate meaning came thanks to Will & Grace - this song played at the end of the episode where Grace was so depressed after her boyfriend broke up with her after she proposed to him and Will, Jack and Karen had been trying to make her feel better but it wasn't working. The next morning she woke up to find all three of them in bed with her, and the sun shining through the windows, and she had hope again and went back out into the world. That's the kind of feeling I get whenever I hear this song - hope and strength to face the world.
(4-part painting by Steve Hanks)
Of course, the song isn't having the desired effect on me right now, because SP never called today and it makes me nervous for when I talk to him tomorrow (see previous post). I haven't done a single productive thing today because I've been so melancholy about it, and so sad. So I didn't vacuum, I didn't clean, I didn't do the few dirty dishes. I just slept late, showered and got dressed and then sat on my couch and was sad all day. I did force myself to walk to the nearby drug store in the evening because I can't find my nail clippers and my toenails are looking terrible, so I bought a clippers and a cuticle clippers and a candybar - but when I got home the nail clippers wasn't in the bag so the lady must have missed the bag when she packed it since it wasn't in a package or anything. So even my good intentions of doing my toenails didn't work out. I'm very very very very blue right now. I can only hope that tomorrow after I talk with SP I'll feel better and can then feel the hope and strength that this song usually gives me.
Anyway, that's all and this is supposed to be a happy and hopeful Musical Monday post so I'm going to stop typing because only sadness is coming out of me now. So to conclude, here are a few of the lyrics from the middle of the song that I particularly like:
...
We should've jumped out
Of that airplane after all
Flying skyways overhead
It wasn't hard to fall
And I had so many crashes
That I couldn't feel At all...
Chorus
And it feels like
I'm 17 Again
Feels like I'm 17
Times might break you
God forsake you
Leave you burned and bruised
Innocence will teach you
What it feels like to be used
Thought that you'd done everything
You didn't have a clue
Repeat chorus
Looking from the outside in
Some things never change...