Sunday, February 12, 2006

A pretty good day, and an email from Azerbaijan :)

Today I woke up semi-early because I was volunteering from noon until 3 p.m. Nothing big - B from the resale shop sent out word that he'd be there to accept drop-offs of donations, and asked if our chapter could help out. The flow of people was nonexistent until almost 1:30, and even then we had only about seven total cars come by with donations. But it ended up being a fun time for me, especially because I was expecting it to be awful.

Due to no one coming, the rest of the women who showed up from my chapter left before 1 p.m., so it was just me and B. I've always heard from everyone how fun and great B is, but I'd never personally met him. He's 42, gay, and describes himself as a fat guy with a hairy back who rarely shaves. In his defense, he isn't fat - he's just big-boned and has a bit of a pooch, but you would never think 'fat' when looking at him. And he has a nice beard. And as for the back hair, that's something I'll never be knowing about.

Anyway, though, he was wonderful!! Really cool, funny, a great guy, and interesting as well - in that he's had life experiences that are so different from mine. Even now, there are about ten topics I can think of that I want to talk more about with him. When I was leaving, he asked if I would join him and another girlfriend of his who stopped by for martinis sometime. And I said yes, even though I won't be drinking the martinis. I'm feeling so happy that I had a good time, and met a great person, and didn't feel judged or like a loser as I often do when I'm around the these women. And I was able to be myself and knew that he enjoyed talking to me for who I am, instead of having a pretentious-type attitude like so many others do.

Also, a guy who has a little shop across the street from the clinic came in to say hi to B, and he was a really interesting character! He's Hispanic and used to be a semi-professional wrestler, I guess in the Hispanic community. Now he just wrestles every once in awhile, and instead took up sewing masks for the wrestlers. From what B told me after he left, Hispanic wrestlers wear ordinary shorts or outfits but also wear masks, maybe to protect their anonymities, or to have separate superhero-like personas, I'm not sure. But this guy taught himself everything, from making the molds to sewing. And according to B, the masks this guy makes are so professional and so cool, sometimes made of leather and sometimes of pleather. I'm going to have to check them out and take some pictures!

After I got home, The German came over and made frittatas for us and showed me how to fix some of the hot pixels that are turning up on my camera. I also asked him about Germany's love affair with David Hasselhoff, which he 1) didn't really know about and 2) didn't really understand. I showed him the hilarious music video, and he hypothesized that Germans must like him because he's so obviously making fun of himself and isn't afraid to keep doing it. I can see his point. Cause I think the guy is hilarious now since seeing the video.

I'm watching downhill skiing right now as typing. Holy fuck do those guys go FAST!!! It makes me nervous just watching them! But that's what I love about the Olympics! And every one of the guys look so hot, too!

I have tomorrow off work - yay!!! I'll be doing a shit-load of laundry, vacuuming my apartment, finishing an opinion, playing guitar, and most probably welcoming SP over tomorrow night for a bit of nasty fun! Yesterday was my lazy day, today was my did-a-little day, so tomorrow will be my super-productive day!!! And THAT'S why we should ALWAYS have three-day weekends!!!!

I just heard a little interview with the French winner of the downhill. Oh how I adore accents!!!!!!!!!!

OMG - speaking of accents, how could I forget!!! I got a surprise email yesterday from my guy from Azerbaijan, Rufat. I haven't heard from him in over a year, so was pretty shocked to get this email out of the blue.

I met him on Halloween night 2004, when I was already pretty drunk and at a big bash with The Bold One. Rufat was with two friends, D - an American, and M - a friend from Azerbaijan who lives in Chicago. None of them were dressed up. I don't even remember how I started talking to them, but I remember taking pictures with them all, and talking to Rufat more, and then somehow Rufat and I were against the wall making out. A little while later I came up for air and looked to the left to see The Bold One and D making out next to us. I looked to the right and M was leaning against the wall smoking. It was pretty funny! And I laughed to myself before searching out Rufat's amazing mouth again with mine.

We stayed against that wall for an hour, I swear it was that long, just kissing and running our hands over each other's clothes. It was so hot, and he was the most amazing kisser. Seriously, the most amazing kisser. Finally, the three guys gave The Bold One and I a ride back to her place, and I dragged myself home later to sleep. Rufat called the next day and I made plans to go to dinner with he and M a couple days later, which would also be the night before Rufat left to visit a friend in California before flying back home to Baku.

So anyway, that night came, Rufat called me to let me know they were downstairs, and when I walked outside he and M were standing outside the car, both in casual suits, and they looked so cute and so hot at the same time. We went to a Turkish restaurant in Andersonville; M was a regular there and knew the owner well. Rufat and M sat across from me, and the three of us talked nonstop through dinner, with them answering all my questions about Azerbaijan, Baku, the culture, the history, the conflict with Armenia, their views on Islam vs. Christianity, and more. It was wonderful and fascinating.

Awhile after we finished dinner, D and The Bold One joined us and Rufat moved next to me. I was soon pretty toasted, and The Bold One tells me the cutest little story which I only half remember. She tells it way better than I will, but here's my attempt: I was trying to explain my point of view on something but due to all the alcohol in my blood, I wasn't making the most sense. M and D kept trying to interrupt and I was getting really frustrated, and it was then that Rufat, with one arm around the back of my chair and the other holding his cigarette, leaned forward and shut them all up, saying "she is making a point!" or something along those lines. It doesn't sound like anything when I write it now, I know that, but the way The Bold One tells it, it's absolutely adorable and I never tire of hearing it!

So anyway, that was the last time I saw him. We emailed a couple times back and forth after he got back to Baku, but since we hardly knew each other and lived halfway around the world, there wasn't too much to say to each other over email.

This new email is really cute. Mostly because of the misspellings and bad grammar - he speaks English less than proficiently but well enough to be able to hold a discussion. And overall, his email has put a smile on my face! A little hello from the other side of the world! One other little tidbit - I still have his original voicemail message from a year and a half ago. Every month or so it comes up and I listen to his wonderful accented talking, and I press 9 to save it again!

Grey's Anatomy just finished and ended with a question, worded something like this: "If you knew you were going to die tomorrow, how would you want to spend your day today?" I'm not sure exactly, but I'm pretty sure I'd spend the whole day weeping, which I feel like doing now just at the thought.

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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi