Sunday, October 22, 2006

Seeing The German and taking pictures!

On Friday night after work I planned to meet The German at his place. He called at one point to tell me that he got out of work a little later than he planned, so I decided to just walk to his place from work, and then as I started walking I started seeing all the beauty of the city around me and I got my camera out and started snapping so so so many pictures! Actually, I'd been inspired even earlier. I had gotten a late start getting to work that morning because I wasn't feeling well in the early morning, so when I got on the train I sat on the side with the sunshine coming in and felt just amazing having the warm sun shine over me, and I noticed gorgeous trees with beautiful yellow leaves on them as we rushed past, and I noticed enchantingly beautiful little streets, and the lovely little cloud formations in the sky. It was SUCH a beautiful day!

Well so anyway, I took so many pictures from along the Chicago River and on Michigan Avenue, and I didn't even have to alter them because so many came out so beautifully! And my couple hours with The German were good but so comfortable and normal and we acted just as we always have - he kissed me in greeting, we laid down and cuddled, he had me sit on his lap to view my pictures after we downloaded them on his computer, and more than once he pulled up my shirt and had some fun with his favorite boobs - and it always gets me so incredibly hot because I don't stop him and instead go with it to see how far he'll go. And the possibility that he'll keep going gets me extremely hot down below. When he would run his hands up and down my stomach and his fingers would dip just a little inside my jeans I was so so so very very ready. We talked about how we wanted so badly for him to fuck me but that we knew it was a very bad idea, and we were strong in that way. But he did dip his fingers down below a couple times to see just how hot I was for him.

So anyway though, it was nice but I know I obviously still can't see him for a very long time. We can keep with our phone talking and that's fine with me, but when I'm around him I get sexually hot for him and I also am so happy to be cuddling and have his arms around me, and I feel so safe and protected and loved. And I get those feelings even as we lay there talking and I tell him all this and he reiterates all he's ever said before. So that's that. Oh but the pictures he had printed for me came out AMAZINGLY!!!! I completely love and adore them, and it's amazing how impressive my pictures look when they're blown up so big! Oh it makes me soooooo excited!!!

Yesterday was such a beautiful fall day as well, although it did get pretty cloudy in the late afternoon. I took a bus to an area that I think looks so cool and has some amazing buildings with so much detail on them. I took a bunch of pictures of the area, of buildings, of people, and I sat in a Starbucks and had a coffee and read my book for awhile. I don't usually do that because I usually prefer to stay home and read - it's more comfortable physically and mentally for me. So on one hand I felt strong for going inside and getting a coffee and getting a table and staying there even though it was outside of my little zone of comfort. But I also was thinking about how much happier I would be reading with little James cuddled at my side sleeping and little Emma near my head on top of the couch cushions. I would much rather be with my sweet babies than alone in a coffee shop. And I was so happy to cuddle with my little lovies when I got home a bit later!

Below are pictures from my walk around downtown on Friday night, and later tonight I'll post pictures from yesterday - I was so excited to find some really beautiful wheat-like-grass to take pictures of, I'm absolutely obsessed with all these beautiful wheat grasses growing all over! They're all so different and all so beautiful, and I think I was able to get some really good pictures!!! Yay!

Okay, I need to go clean and do a lot of stuff around my place! I'm so motivated today!!! :)


The pink light on the top of the Wrigley Building is pink for Breast Cancer Month

The current progress of the Trump Tower

Another picture along Wacker Drive, with the Trump Tower to the left.

From left: Wrigley Building, Tribune Tower, and Michigan Avenue Bridge

Again

On Michigan Avenue Bridge - headlights hightlighting pedestrians.

City lights from Michigan Avenue Bridge, with a warm tint.

And again, but true color.

Bus going by on Michigan Avenue.

I love how this art gallery looks at night. I'm not at all a fan of a fur store.

Activity on Michigan Avenue

Girl hailing a cab

Handheld photo from below the Hancock - and I'd like to note that the shutter was open for EIGHT seconds and I wasn't even bracing myself or the camera against anything, and it's not even that blurry!!!

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Written by Caterpillar :: 10/22/2006 11:30:00 AM :: ::


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I'm a 30-year-old sometimes girl and sometimes woman living in Chicago. Over the past year I have faced my biggest demon and won, and as a result I have hope again for wonderful and fabulous things to happen! I'm still learning, growing and always trying to improve myself, but I absolutely love life and think I'm very close to becoming a real butterfly!!!
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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi