Musical Monday and weekend update
For my song this week, I've chosen the final track from Long Walk Home: Music from the Rabbit-Proof Fence, entitled Cloudless. The whole soundtrack was composed by Peter Gabriel, and it is just hauntingly beautiful and so so so powerful. There are times when the music is growing and I can almost physically feel myself straining towards where the music is going. I also love the background singing and chanting, and the various Aboriginal sounds and instruments that Peter Gabriel uses.
Okay, I'm going to put up another song from the album as well, just because one isn't enough as they're all so amazing! This second song is called Gracie's recapture, and I love at various points through the song when the music is increasing and growing and just pulling you in - this music is just incredible, I can't find words to adequately express how it touches me.
If you haven't seen Rabbit-Proof Fence, I so highly recommend it. I actually need to watch it again because it's been a couple of years now since I've last seen it. But it stayed with me, and every time I listen to this soundtrack, which is relatively often, I am drawn in and listen to it over and over again. And it goes perfectly with the movie, too, which is so so so beautifully done. And the story doesn't leave you after the movie ends, either, not even close. If I had to list ten movies that were the best I'd seen, this would definitely be on the list.
After I first saw the movie I watched a couple of the documentaries on the DVD about the making of the movie and the story of the Aboriginal children who were taken, known as the Stolen Generation. One thing I loved - the three main actresses who play the young girls had never acted before and were Aboriginies themselves. All three of them were amazing in the movie, and also so different and had such interesting personalities, especially the oldest girl. It was really touching, and made the movie even more memorable for me.
Okay, well in other news, I'm so happy because tonight I did six loads of laundry!!! It had been five weeks since I last did any laundry, so I was truly down to my last pair of underwear. I also have my dining room almost completely taped up with the blue painting tape, so as soon as I get the paint and painting stuff, I can begin! And on Saturday I did all the dishes and fully cleaned the kitchen, and also cleaned the rugs of cat hair and litter. So even though I didn't accomplish all that I would have liked to do, I feel very satisfied! :)
Today (Sunday) The German came over and we went to breakfast, where I got the exact same thing as last weekend - the heaven-in-your-mouth sour cherry french toast. Oh it was amazing. I really think I could eat that every day of my life and never ever get sick of it, it's just that good! Then we walked by a friend's house and she happened to be there, so we hung out with her for a bit until her friends arrived with their little one-year-old daughter, and then we all walked to the Folk & Roots Festival, where we listened to some wonderful and such good music. I really love that fiddle and banjo music - it makes me want to stand up and start jumping around, it's such happy and fun music!
When we left our friend and her friends at the children's tent and went to listen to the music at the main stage, The German walked right up to the front since it was the only area in the shade and it was insanely hot out there. At first I stayed back and gave him dirty looks because I didn't want to walk up in front of all those people, but once I did walk up I felt fine, especially because we were off to the side a little and my back was to everyone else anyway, and mostly because I wasn't alone. And then I was so happy to be in the shade!
After awhile we left the festival and went back to my place and the lovely AC. And even though I originally told myself that I wasn't going to engage in any sexual activities with him today (so it's not every single time I see him), I ended up happily going back on my promise and he fully took care of my little problem from the night before. So I'm a happy girl! And then we cuddled on the couch and watched a movie. He was very affectionate the whole time. He was also very affectionate throughout the day. In the morning when we were walking he even grabbed me, picked me up and swung me around once. Do you see the mixed messages he gives me?
And also, when his lease comes up on December 1st he's not going to renew and is instead going to move to my area because it's just so cool. He told me today that he's going to just throw away most of his furniture because it's so old and cheap anyway, and he's going to move the rest of his things into storage for a month or two while he goes on a long vacation and then when he moves into the new place in January or February, he's going to buy new furniture - this is shocking behavior coming from him! For him to talk about getting rid of his cheap furniture and actually buying new stuff - well first of all he's about the thriftiest guy ever so any expenditures are only for things that he needs to buy or are more important to him. And second, buying new furniture implies settling down, it implies staying in Chicago for at least awhile longer, it implies that he's growing up a bit. He's changing, a lot. But yet still staying the same as well. WTF!?!
Oh and just one other tiny thing - when we were walking around at that same time, we were looking at all the various buildings and houses, both new and old, and he was actually really having fun and into talking about the good and bad things about different homes and saying what places he liked. A year ago his response to any kind of home would have been, "bahhhh, this doesn't interest me." And just one more thing - when he asked me today about SP and I told him very general information about our most recent encounter, I detected something - and it was akin to jealousy or just being bothered - not wanting to really hear anything, even though he joked about it and asked about it. Oh - and I swear this is the last thing - we stopped at the library because he wanted to get a couple books on sailing that he knew were there, and one that he saw and took out was called something like "Dragged Aboard" and written for the member of the couple who isn't as excited about sailing. He said it was for me, and he talked about us taking an overnight trip on the boat, and he talks about all the things he needs to teach me about the boat and about sailing.
So anyway, these changes in him are real. But then I have to go back to our instant message conversation of a week ago, wherein he very clearly says that he is not interested in any kind of long term plans or "normal" life. I'm so glad that I have him saying that in writing, because I need to be able to go back to that after a day like today where not only does he show his love for me in so many ways, but he also so clearly shows that he's changing in some pretty big ways for him!
Okay, that's enough for today. I need to get to bed.