Friday, December 09, 2005

Too much action is annoying! (I'm not talking about THAT kind of action, though!)

I'm a little sleep-deprived since I've been staying up late with my mom and then getting up early when she gets up, so I've been on and off peevish today. And even while I get annoyed when my mom nags me about stuff, and I know it's lack of sleep and I should just be nice, I haven't totally been.

Don't get me wrong - I haven't been mean to her, just annoyed. She's starting to feel better today, which is so good! But that means she's not sitting on the couch and resting like she should be and is instead walking around and trying to find things to do. At least it's been that way for the past six hours. This morning she went to the doctor's office and got the tube taken out of her neck and received the final pathology report: all benign. When she got back here she was really tired so slept on the couch until 2:30. After she woke up, I made us some soup so she could eat real food, and even while she was eating she asked me three times to get the paper and mail. And asked me to put some of her books away. And then asked again. And then other stuff.

I'm a kind of lazy person, I know that. So while I will get things done eventually, I wait awhile to get started. And then maybe accomplish only some of the things. My mom is an action person, so when she gets it in mind to get stuff done, she wants to get started THAT MINUTE and is antsy and nagging until it gets done. Ughhhhhhh!!!! Drvies me crazy sometimes!!!! She cleaned half the kitchen herself because she just wouldn't sit still. Which also annoyed me.

However, in the midst of my annoyance this afternoon, I also stumbled upon some fun! A little dorky fun, but fun for me regardless! I went into my mom's closet to find a pair of my dad's pajama bottoms for her to wear, and happened to look up and see my baby book and some other keepsake treasures! So I returned downstairs with the baby book, a few of my brother and my favorite children's books that my mom had saved, and a box with a bunch of old school and professional photos of us.

And also in this pile were two things that I've thought about every once in awhile and thought may have been lost: a short story I wrote in 8th grade that won first place in a local writing contest, and a choose-your-own-adventure book that I wrote and put together in 5th grade while taking extra classes!!! How fun!!! I loved re-reading them, especially the 8th grade story! It was set in Ancient Greece and had as characters three of the gods up on Mount Olympus, as well as a human girl who was beautiful but self-absorbed only with her own beauty, power, and wealth. For her sins, the gods turned her into a diamond - where she would always have beauty, power, and wealth. I remember writing the story and being so proud of it! And after re-reading it, I have to say that it wasn't too bad, and was quite, quite good for a 13-year-old!

I also went through my entire baby book, and loved reading my mom's little narrative of my development, month by month for my first two years, and every three months after that, until I was 7 1/2. It's fascinating how much little babies learn and how they change each month, and how they quickly become little people! It's also fascinating how much of our respective characters are nature - after all, babies are born with such different personalities! I read my brother's baby book after my own, and as children we were completely different, almost opposites. And from reading my mom's notes, our various characteristics were showing up at really early ages, before nurture could have too much of an effect. Of course, I also see really big differences in how I was as a child and who I am now, but I don't think I could ever now be like my brother was then, it's just not in my nature. My own personal view on the nature/nurture issue, from what I learned as a psychology major to everything I've observed and learned since, is that the genes and/or soul we're born with determines the perimeters within which our character and personality will almost always fall (I see it as a cube of sorts in my mind), and then our nurture/life experiences determine where within that box we actually fall - with that of course changing slightly as well as we grow. Anyway, it's such an interesting topic for me to both think about myself and discuss! And I loved reading how I was then while knowing how I am now.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Written by Caterpillar :: 12/09/2005 07:31:00 PM :: ::


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I'm a 30-year-old sometimes girl and sometimes woman living in Chicago. Over the past year I have faced my biggest demon and won, and as a result I have hope again for wonderful and fabulous things to happen! I'm still learning, growing and always trying to improve myself, but I absolutely love life and think I'm very close to becoming a real butterfly!!!
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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi