Late Musical Monday and Gratitude Tuesday
On Sunday afternoon I was feeling such cabin-fever, such frustration with myself, such kind of loneliness, and just that "ehhnn" feeling. I had a brief cry and then had a little talk with myself and told myself that I could sit on the couch and feel awful or I could get up and start doing something. So I got up - yay me!!! And I spent the next four or five hours actually really doing things - lots of cleaning and laundry and going through stuff and even going through my closet and throwing out clothes I haven't worn in the past 6 months! (Sidenote: I did start the cleaning on Friday but obviously didn't finish.) So my place looks wonderful now (except for the dishes that I still need to do and two more loads of laundry cause I ran out of quarters), and I felt SO wonderful all during cleaning and afterward, and I even felt good today still! I love that feeling!!
While I was cleaning for those five hours, I kept playing the same album over and over again because I'm just a dork like that sometimes and keep listening to the same thing. The album I was playing was Hybrid Theory by Linkin Park. I bought the album back when it came out because I heard a couple of the songs and just completely loved them - because I love that wild, rebellious and angst-filled music sometimes - it's SO energizing!!! I don't really go searching for that kind of music which is why I still just have this one album and no comparable albums by any other groups. But I love and adore this kind of music sometimes and it so inspires and invigorates me!! And I love this whole album and can obviously listen to it ten times in a row quite happily! :)
I'm posting two songs, first Crawling - which was the song that made me buy the album way back when (it spoke to me!), and second Runaway - just because I wanted to post two songs and I couldn't decide on a second because I like them all, so I finally just picked this one.
Linkin Park :: Crawling
Linkin Park :: Runaway
Crawling
[Chorus:]
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There's something inside of me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self-control
I fear is never ending
Controlling, I can't seem
[Pre-chorus:]
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence,)
(I'm convinced that there's just)
(Too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure
[Chorus]
Discomfort endlessly
Has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will
I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting
How I can't seem...
[Pre-chorus]
[Chorus x2]