Monday, October 30, 2006

Musical Monday! :) And oh I'm just so so so happy still!!!

I've had a mostly extremely lazy weekend but it doesn't bother me even the tiniest bit because I'm just so happy all around!!! And today my new guy who I'm now going to call Mr. Hands (see post below) sent me flowers!!! Long-stemmed roses and these long branches of I think eucalyptus which all smell so so so good and look just WONDERFUL!! And of course it makes me happy everytime I look at it! And everytime I smell it! And it makes me feel so wonderful!!! (And blogger is not complying with posting pictures tonight but so I'll post some hopefully tomorrow then.)

And I am just so so so so so so so happy, both with excitement and also with so much more. Mr. Hands and I talked on the phone during the afternoon for over an hour and had a really good conversation about so many things. It made me so much look forward to talking to him more, learning more about him, communicating in many different ways, seeing him sometime soon and growing with him! I can't wait to see him again and kiss and touch and hug him so tightly!

And we have decided together to try this out and see what happens because there's something really here between us, something wonderful, and despite the distance and such, we both have optimism and are together on this - and really, I love knowing this and knowing that we're both on the same page because I can really be myself then, and tell him how happy he makes me!!! It gives me a sense of freedom that I love, and even though I still worry about not being so good on the phone I think I'm doing better and I'll get better and better! I feel so content right now, and I'm smiling a lot even when I'm just sitting around!!! Smiling feels good, too!

Tonight we talked again and I got to see him on his computer's camera! He's sooooooooo sexy and hot and cute and I just love love love being able to see him - it did so much to me! Tomorrow night I'll get out my little webcam that I don't think I've ever used and try to figure out how to make it work. And then just a little later we IMed for another long time and had ourselves quite the exciting talk for awhile, and shared a couple of sexual fantasies that we will now be acting out in the future!!! And we had just the best number of other little conversations and it's amazing, I've never talked so openly and honestly and just been so completely ME before so soon into a relationship. And we're both so alike on that, too - that we've both realized how important it is to really really communicate and about everything, from things we like and things the other does or says that makes us so happy, to where we're going and what we want and what's important to us etc. etc. etc. And so things are so wonderful! So so so wonderful! I love how we talk, I love so many things he says, I love what we talk about, and I love so much more! This new man of mine is absolutely amazing!!!! I don't know how to explain and express it all, but he just blows me away in so many ways! And puts such a kind of perma-grin on my face! :)

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Okay but now I have to post my Musical Monday songs so I can go to bed - and oh happiness at being able to sleep an hour later than normal in the morning!!! Today I'm posting two songs by the same group - who I was introduced to by Mr. Hands on one of the wonderful CDs he made for me - and I can't stop listening to these two songs, they are so so so so so so so so so beautiful!!!! I just love and adore this kind of music more than I can possibly say! And I got the whole album and the whole thing is wonderful wonderful wonderful!!!

The group is called Flunk and this is what alwaysontherun.net has to say about them:

The Norwegian folktronica foursome Flunk was formed out of the studio jam sessions of a trio of Oslo musicians: producer Ulf Nygaard (also of Folk and Rovere), guitarist Jo Bakke (formerly with the Happy Campers), and drummer Erik Ruud (a member of the Guidance-label act Antenna). After adding vocalist Anja Oyen Vister, Flunk recorded their debut album, For Sleepyheads Only, and released the record through Guidance. A folkie cover of New Order's "Blue Monday" made a bit of headway in the downbeat boom of 2002.

Both of these songs are from the album For Sleepyheads Only. Enjoy!!!!

Flunk :: Your Koolest Smile



Your koolest smile
Brings me into koolest moods

Your koolest smile
Brings me into koolest moods

I don't know what to say
You're tricking me
Into something crazy
I can see

I don't want your sympathy
Or your games
They make me feel so insane

Your koolest smile
Brings me into koolest moods

I don't want your sympathy
Or your games

I don't want your sympathy
Or your games

Your koolest smile
Brings me into koolest moods

I don't know what to say
You're tricking me
Into something crazy
I can see

I don't want your sympathy
Or your games
They make me feel so
So insane

I don't want your sympathy
Or your games

I don't want your sympathy
Or your games

They make me feel insane

Flunk :: Distortion



Gosh! Guess I'm kind of sleepy too!
I think I'll climb aboard that very special choo-choo train...
Why don't you join us on our trip to lullaby land
I think it's about to leave
Are you ready


Distortions
Sweeps me
Distortions
Sweeps me
Distortions
Sweeps me

Distortions
Distortions
Distortions
Sweeps me

Distortions
Sweeps me...

Our little train trip to lullaby land is nearly over
Shall we go again tomorrow night
And the next night
And the next
Mind if I come along too
Before I say goodnight
Here's a very special lullaby I wrote especially for you

Sleepyhead, sleepyhead
Time to go to sleep
Now go on in your bed
Sleep my sleepy head

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Written by Caterpillar :: 10/30/2006 12:01:00 AM :: ::


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I'm a 30-year-old sometimes girl and sometimes woman living in Chicago. Over the past year I have faced my biggest demon and won, and as a result I have hope again for wonderful and fabulous things to happen! I'm still learning, growing and always trying to improve myself, but I absolutely love life and think I'm very close to becoming a real butterfly!!!
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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi