Monday, July 24, 2006

Musical Monday, Weekend Recap and Many, Many Pictures!

Musical Monday

For Musical Monday today, I've chosen a song from an album that will always have such wonderful meaning to me. The song is Trigger Hippie by Morcheeba, from the album Who Can You Trust.



I've spoken before about my study abroad in Europe during the summer of 1999, and how incredible and life-changing and important and amazing and just so so so so so so (lack words to adequately describe) it was for me. For me, this entire album by Morcheeba brings back every feeling I had from that trip. Near the end of the trip, an Austrian guy wrote down a bunch of bands or singers to buy for a couple of us girls. One was Morcheeba. When I got to Paris, I ran across a music store and went looking for some of the recommended music. I don't remember if this album was the only one by Morcheeba but it was the one I bought and I didn't listen to it until I got back to Chicago, and then I couldn't stop listening to it.

For me, this album is so erotic and so sensual sounding, and it makes me want to writhe around and dance like a snake and fuck like an animal. The entire album is absolutely perfect and absolutely amazing. I've had the hardest time picking just one song from it. So I'm going to pick a second one just to make me feel better! So the second one is Never An Easy Way.



A few days after I came back from Europe, I had to go to a meeting of sorts at my law school and afterward, a guy who was model gorgeous and who I'd hooked up with once before my trip gave a friend and I a ride home. He dropped her off first and when he got to my place he begged to come up and use the bathroom since he was driving all the way back to his parents' house in the burbs afterward. At first I didn't want to let him up because my place was so messy, but I did. While he was using the bathroom, I put this album on. When he came out, he asked what it was and commented on how sensual it was. We were standing in the kitchen. We flirted for about a minute and I knew he wanted to fuck me and he knew I was dying to be fucked.

This guy had the biggest cock - so long and so fat. I remember how amazed I had been the first time I saw it, and I was still amazed that second time. I don't remember how we got my pants off, but both my pants and underwear were very quickly discarded on the kitchen floor and my shirt was hiked up above my boobs. I don't think I was wearing a bra. He took his t-shirt off and I remember running my hands up and down his chest. He lifted me up on the counter, we kissed, he reached down and felt how wet I already was, and I reached down and grabbed his cock. And then I remember very well how he grabbed my hips and pulled me halfway off the counter and how I guided his cock right to me, and he fucked me fantastically good right there on the counter. I half held onto the cabinets, and he held onto my ass. It was amazing. And it was all to this music.

Whenever I hear this album I remember vividly my feelings during that time directly after Europe, and I also get very horny, in that make-me-dance-for-you, slam-me-up-against-a-wall, fuck-me-on-a-counter kind of way. [Deep, deep sigh]: Ahhhhhh.......

Weekend Recap and Many Pictures (written Sunday night)

I had a kind of busy weekend! I tried to post last night and I managed to upload a bunch of pictures before falling asleep on my couch. Luckily I didn't stay there long and moved to my bed at 11:30 p.m., and this morning I slept until 11:00 when The Bold One called to wake me up so I could go see her new condo. Oh and on Friday night I stayed up until 3 a.m. because of course I get my best work done in the middle of the night, so I started doing my dishes at midnight and then continued to clean the rest of my apartment.

Okay so yesterday (Saturday), I went to The German's at around 10 a.m. and he made us breakfast and we cuddled for a bit, and I also got jealous when he got a call from first a long ago ex-girlfriend who he is still friends with (not like he is with me though, and to be fair, she's getting married very soon) and then from some chick who I know he sees occasionally as a friend but who I've never met or seen but she's a girl so of course I don't like it - and when he was talking to her he said that he was having breakfast the next morning with a third girl and a couple of her friends (and that third girl brought him back a stuffed pig from England a year ago so I of course also dislike her, even though again I've never met her or seen a picture).

With regard to the ex-girlfriend, I mocked the way he always talks to her on the phone, like she's this fragile little flower who will crack if he doesn't talk to her like a five-year-old. It's annoying as hell. He laughed while I did this, and didn't deny that he does talk to her like that. With regard to chick #2, I quizzed him to make sure I understood this relationship, and with regard to chick #3 I did the same, and he laughed at my jealousy and told me, "I am yours." And it came out later in the day that both of these two chickypoos are not pretty and are overweight, and I know it's extremely petty of me, but it made me feel so much less threatened and so much better.

While still at his place though, and after I was being silly with my jealousy and he was laughing at my silliness, I burst into tears about it and he pulled me over to the bed and kissed me and held me and kissed me again. I know we have a bit of an odd relationship.

Anyway, after that we took a cab to the marina because we were running late - the sailing Race to Mackinac started at noon and thereafter and we wanted to see some boats, and I wanted to take pictures! I was really nervous about getting to his boat because when he was there the weekend before he said it was infested with spiders and as we all know, I fucking HATE spiders. And when we got there my worst nightmare was coming true because they were everywhere - at least mostly babies but some really huge ones as well, including one that was as big as the tip of my thumb that The German swiped overboard - oh holy shit my heart is beating fast just thinking about it. I killed many many many by stepping on them and they had dark green guts - how gross is that! But there were so many more on the rolled up sail above our heads!

The German just got right to business and suddenly, before I knew it and before I felt that the spider situation was even close to adequately addressed, he had started the engine and unhooked us and we were motoring out. I got my camera out because of course I couldn't let the opportunity go by to take some great pictures, but my position was one of straight back, not leaning against the backboard because spiders were crawling all over, and I knew where every single visible spider was in the wrapped up sail as well as a few that weren't easily visible, so I was monitoring those spiders as well as constantly looking at the floor, the seat across from me, the board behind me, and everywhere else possible. It was terrible. I felt so vulnerable.

But anyway, I did manage to get some great shots that I just love!! I put my telephoto (or is it telefoto?) lens on and it was the first time I've really used it, and I'm so excited about it now! And when The German and I had motored for awhile but before we went out of the final breakwater, he said something about putting the sail up and I told him just how LITTLE fun I was having because of all the spiders that he hadn't helped me get rid of. Because he's who he is and a good guy, he felt really bad so decided we should try out the anchor for the first time and just watch the boats parade out into the open lake. I liked this plan.

But then he had to open a hatch in the top of a seat to find the anchor, and then got the rope out, and he put them on the floor as I watched spiders crawling on the bottom of the open hatch and some crawling on the floor that came off the rope and I kept my feet up and just tried to step on any that were out in the open - am I adequately describing the hell that this spider-infested boat was for me at the time?!

Then he spent probably ten minutes in the front of the boat trying to untangle the rope and get it tied to the anchor and that whole time I was having to navigate around in a big circle while watching for the fucking spiders everywhere and when we finally got anchored, I told him nicely how pissed off I was that 1) he got me on this spider-infested boat and then didn't take the time to help me kill as many as possible so I could feel comfortable, and 2) that he wasn't prepared with the anchor rope and left me alone in the back to navigate while being surrounded with spiders - and I reminded him of the book Dragged Aboard that he gave me, and I'm actually reading it and it's actually very good, and in chapter 4 the author lists the Bill of Rights of the dragged-aboard passenger, and one of those rights is the right to expect the captain to be fully prepared and know what he's doing and to provide us with a safe and comfortable boat - and I told him that some of those rules had been terribly broken by him!! Ohh my heart is beating fast now.

Anyway though, he then felt bad and apologized about not having the rope untangled before, and for not making me feel comfortable with the spider situation. And he helped me kill some of the obvious spiders that I pointed out and then fashioned a little comfy area for us and held me reclined against him, and we watched the ships go by and I got to take a lot of pictures. And when he put up the sail later I sat in the front of the boat so that no spiders could drop on me, and he killed any and all that fell down.

And then we sailed! And any spiders that were left on the sail flew off and when I would every once in awhile see a small one crawling around I would kill the motherfucker. So he showed me tacking, and I did the tiller and he did the jib or jenny or whatever it's properly called. And we had really good wind for awhile! And it was fun! Then awhile later we got a good wind going outside the breakwater so headed straight out but then we had a brief lapse in the wind, and I decided to take some pictures, and then I started feeling a bit of something in my stomach.

The German went below to get me some of the anti-seasick pills and we ate some grapes and drank some water and I felt a little better at first but then not so much so we turned around, and then the wind died. So finally after sitting for a bit rocking in the water and my stomach rocking more with each minute, I suggested turning the motor on and he agreed and we started motoring in and then The German admitted that he was feeling a bit seasick as well, so I didn't feel as bad. We motored all the way in and near the end I navigated while The German packed up the sails so that we were ready to be picked up by the tender as soon as we got back. I was happy to get back on dry land!

And then we went back to The German's place for awhile and laid on the bed and looked at the pictures I took and ate some dinner. And then we went to Home Depot so he could get some bug spray (because he also has some wasp nests built inside his boat - yuck!). And then we parted ways. So it's no wonder that I was so tired last night! Sailing takes a lot out of me normally just because of the sun and the kind of always being on and bracing against waves and all that, but sailing with my constant worry about spiders was stressful as fuck!!!

Here are some of my pictures from the day, I love them!!!


View of the skyline as we were going out.

Didn't this turn out so well!!! I didn't even have to crop this picture! I felt like a professional photographer when I saw this picture! I love my telefoto lens now!

View of the skyline from a little further out.

Some of the many, many sailboats out in the lake getting ready for the race.

When we looked back at this picture we counted 24 people on this boat! (But to be fair, I don't know if it was racing or not - still though, it's a lot of people!)

Another racer heading out.

We anchored right by the lighthouse.

This is a commercial tour sailboat that we always admire from afar because it looks so so so cool and pretty with all its sails!

A racer in action with both sails all the way up! (Regular lens)

Skyline from farther out, right before I got seasick. (Regular lens)

Okay, those are the fun pictures! I love how especially that second one turned out - the close-up of the sailboat and crew from behind! So so cool!

Today, as I said before, The Bold One called to wake me up at 11 and I managed to get down to her area at 2:00 p.m. - 1) because I'm slow in the morning and 2) because it took well over an hour to get there between the time that I left my place and arrived at the restaurant where she and another friend were having lunch. This is the first time that I've been to this area or anywhere around this area, I was so excited!!! It was the kind of Little Italy area of the city and around her new condo it was so cute and quaint and there were flowers and little gardens all over the place, it had such a nice little atmosphere. But then just a few blocks away there were some old Projects (and that's what she had me first walk through to meet them at the restaurant so I was wondering just what kind of area she had moved into!).

After lunch, The Bold One and I walked a ways towards where the open-air Sunday market is, which I guess use to be on Maxwell Street (which I have heard many stories about). We were late so the market was closing up and most of the people were busy packing their stuff up. We're going to go again next week and get there earlier so we can get the full experience. But even though we were late, we saw so many characters and every kind of thing was being sold, from old used tools to old vacuums to new shampoos and drug-store items to tons of men's shoes, to tires. It was really cool!

And after that we walked further and went to Target - and I just LOVE going to Target! They have some of EVERYTHING!!! We spent at least an hour there looking at everything. I ended up getting two pair of yoga pants (my favorite and I live in them at home), a little t-shirt, a very cool clock, a basket for my living room that perfectly matches the color of the paint in my dining room (to put magazines and stuff in so my coffee table is less cluttered), and some silver block letters that spell "Love" (and I don't care if some people think that's cheesy, I love my power words!), and The Bold One bought some shirts and a flashlight.

And do you know what Target had that I was just fascinated with? They had special escalators for the shopping carts!! I'd never seen those before even though The Bold One said they're in Europe and at some other stores here. I loved them! We didn't have a cart when we went upstairs so I didn't get to try it out but I loved it!!!

Okay, I'm getting really sleepy now. But first, here are two pictures from today:

A beautiful flower near The Bold One's house.

This is the front door on a place in The Bold One's neighborhood, how cool and amazing is it - it's solid carved wood, even the door handle!

Okay, time for bed!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Written by Caterpillar :: 7/24/2006 12:02:00 AM :: ::


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I'm a 30-year-old sometimes girl and sometimes woman living in Chicago. Over the past year I have faced my biggest demon and won, and as a result I have hope again for wonderful and fabulous things to happen! I'm still learning, growing and always trying to improve myself, but I absolutely love life and think I'm very close to becoming a real butterfly!!!
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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi