Musical Monday, smooshing bugs and weekend update
Ewww, I just killed a little beetle. And I feel so bad because I really smooshed it (under a thin plastic bag) and literally felt it's outer skeleton crack beneath my fingers. And then I lifted the bag up quickly after I felt that and I saw the little thing still moving so I just grabbed it in the bag and threw it in the trash can. Ewwwww, both at the gross feeling and sound of it cracking and also because I so brutally killed it. I feel almost like something bad is going to happen to me now.
I painted half of my living room!!! Yay me!!! I did that on Saturday night while also trying to copy all my pictures and music from when I when I last backed it all up onto CDs. So far I've thankfully copied all my pictures and part of my music. And the reason that I'm suddenly trying to back everything up? Because I got the evil SMART Imminent Failure Warning again. Sometimes I fucking hate hate hate this computer.
Oh and even worse - I hadn't updated my iPod in at least a year because the first time I had to completely start the computer over from scratch I of course lost everything that was nicely organized into iTunes. And I've been slowly working on getting it all organized again and making some of my little playlists and adding stuff into it and all that so that I can happily update the iPod. All Friday night I worked on organizing the music and right before I went to bed I was satisfied and plugged the iPod into the computer and it gave me some Terrible Icon on the screen of the iPod with a nice battery picture and little triangle with an exclamation point in it. I tried it three times and the same thing happened each time, and as soon as the icon came on, I could also hear the iPod stop running it's wheels, so to speak. So motherfucker - I think the fucking battery in the iPod needs to be replaced now! And if my computer fucking dies again and needs to be started from scratch - oooooh well I will just be very frustrated for a time with BOTH stupid machines!!! But then I'll remember that it's all good, and It Is What It Is, and in the big scheme of things this isn't even a blurp - after repeating that in my head, I'm physically much more relaxed now and I actually felt my heart slow back down - I LOVE what power perspective can give me!
Well so anyway, first of all I have to report that I didn't go to work on Friday because I was in the most serious sleep funk that I've been in for awhile. I talked to my mom on Friday morning for about ten minutes but I think I momentarily fell asleep on her a few times, and she kept asking me if I was okay because she said I'd never sounded so sleepy and out of it before when she's called in the morning. She even asked me if I'd started drinking again (no, not since November 9). I went to sleep again after we got off the phone. When The German called an hour later he wouldn't let me off the phone until he heard me in the kitchen, running water and opening food for James and Emma. But then I was so tired that after I fed them I decided I'd nap for just a little longer and maybe go in at noon.
My boss called me around 11:00 and I remember waking up from the ringing and seeing it was him and half talking to him and telling him I just woke up and asking him if I could call him back because I couldn't form a coherent sentence. And then I next woke up at 4:30 in the afternoon when The German called because he hadn't seen me online. Then I went to bed on Friday night at 1:00 a.m. and slept until 10:00 a.m. on Saturday morning and at around noon my eyes were really tired while laying on the couch reading so I shut them and slept until 2:30. Ugh. A lot of sleep. But I don't feel at all like I slept too much. If anything, I'm really tired right now.
Well so after I woke from my nap I finally decided to do something. I'd showered in the morning so I went out and got the CDs to copy stuff onto and another paint brush and a level for hanging pictures and whatnot. And then I decided to paint! So I taped half of my living room and during the day had finally made a decision to use the yellow paint that I'd had in my kitchen at my last place - I still had about half a gallon left - and it's the most perfect sunny yellow ever! I love it! So I painted and it looks so wonderful and I'm so happy with the color and it instantly adds so much light and happiness and brilliance to the room.
Today The German came over and we ventured out in the terrible and oppressive heat to a different restaurant for breakfast. I was in weird mood for most of today and I knew it, I could just feel it. I was slightly irritated for no reason, and felt sometimes like I wanted to go to sleep, sometimes like I wanted to get out, sometimes like I had terrible cabin fever, and sometimes like I wanted to cry. I told him a few times what kind of weird unsettledness I was feeling, 1) because almost as soon as he walked in the door he asked me what was wrong and 2) because he's so good with me when I tell him how I'm feeling.
When we came back from breakfast I was a big ball of sweat and he tried to cuddle and I told him to back off until I cooled off, and I turned down the temperature on the air conditioner and turned it to full blast and even then it was probably an hour before my body temperature was back to normal. Anyway though, he brought the movie Master & Commander so we laid on the couch and watched that, which ended up being a perfect way to spend the afternoon.
After the movie I went to the grocery store with him and then we got on the train, with me getting off first to go to Home Depot and get more yellow paint and also a most wonderful shade of red with a slight deep pink look paint. Right before my stop I leaned in to kiss him and leaned in as well and we gave each other our normal nice kiss, and then he leaned back in and kissed me longer and then briefly grabbed my head and made it a much deeper kiss - it felt very nice! And he called me when he got home and while I was still at Home Depot, just to relate a silly little story to me. And the we also talked tonight for a bit, and he's going to call me much earlier tomorrow morning so I can get to work by 9:15 because I have no idea what's up tomorrow.
Well anyway, I purchased my yellow and red paint and some more painting tape but by the time I got home I was so hot and so tired from the heat, so instead I just laid on my couch with the heavenly AC cooling the room so perfectly (I'm going to sleep on the couch tonight), and the first Harry Potter movie was on so I watched that and then decided to start re-reading the sixth Harry Potter book and made it through the first two chapters before getting really sleepy. And then I played the James and Emma for a bit, and then got ready for bed, and now we're all up to date! :)
Tomorrow I'll hopefully finish painting my living room. And I also have the bathroom almost completely taped for painting. I get so HAPPY when I see my dining room blue and my two living room yellow walls, so I'll be just ecstatic and walking constantly all around my apartment once I have the whole thing painted! That's all for now, I need to sleep so I can wake up very early tomorrow and get to work way earlier than my usual lateness. Here are the lyrics for Crazy Love - so simple and so wonderful!
Crazy Love
I can hear her heart beat for a thousand miles
And the heavens open every time she smiles
And when I come to her that's where I belong
Yet I'm running to her like a rivers song
Chorus:
She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love
She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love
She's got a fine sense of humor when I'm feeling low down
And when I come to her when the sun goes down
Take away my trouble, take away my grief
Take away my heartache, in the night like a thief
Chorus
Yes I need her in the daytime
Yes I need her in the night
Yes I want to throw my arms around her
Kiss her hug her kiss her hug her tight
And when I'm returning from so far away
She gives me some sweet lovin' brighten up my day
Yes it makes me righteous, yes it makes me feel whole
Yes it makes me mellow down in to my soul
Chorus
I painted half of my living room!!! Yay me!!! I did that on Saturday night while also trying to copy all my pictures and music from when I when I last backed it all up onto CDs. So far I've thankfully copied all my pictures and part of my music. And the reason that I'm suddenly trying to back everything up? Because I got the evil SMART Imminent Failure Warning again. Sometimes I fucking hate hate hate this computer.
Oh and even worse - I hadn't updated my iPod in at least a year because the first time I had to completely start the computer over from scratch I of course lost everything that was nicely organized into iTunes. And I've been slowly working on getting it all organized again and making some of my little playlists and adding stuff into it and all that so that I can happily update the iPod. All Friday night I worked on organizing the music and right before I went to bed I was satisfied and plugged the iPod into the computer and it gave me some Terrible Icon on the screen of the iPod with a nice battery picture and little triangle with an exclamation point in it. I tried it three times and the same thing happened each time, and as soon as the icon came on, I could also hear the iPod stop running it's wheels, so to speak. So motherfucker - I think the fucking battery in the iPod needs to be replaced now! And if my computer fucking dies again and needs to be started from scratch - oooooh well I will just be very frustrated for a time with BOTH stupid machines!!! But then I'll remember that it's all good, and It Is What It Is, and in the big scheme of things this isn't even a blurp - after repeating that in my head, I'm physically much more relaxed now and I actually felt my heart slow back down - I LOVE what power perspective can give me!
Well so anyway, first of all I have to report that I didn't go to work on Friday because I was in the most serious sleep funk that I've been in for awhile. I talked to my mom on Friday morning for about ten minutes but I think I momentarily fell asleep on her a few times, and she kept asking me if I was okay because she said I'd never sounded so sleepy and out of it before when she's called in the morning. She even asked me if I'd started drinking again (no, not since November 9). I went to sleep again after we got off the phone. When The German called an hour later he wouldn't let me off the phone until he heard me in the kitchen, running water and opening food for James and Emma. But then I was so tired that after I fed them I decided I'd nap for just a little longer and maybe go in at noon.
My boss called me around 11:00 and I remember waking up from the ringing and seeing it was him and half talking to him and telling him I just woke up and asking him if I could call him back because I couldn't form a coherent sentence. And then I next woke up at 4:30 in the afternoon when The German called because he hadn't seen me online. Then I went to bed on Friday night at 1:00 a.m. and slept until 10:00 a.m. on Saturday morning and at around noon my eyes were really tired while laying on the couch reading so I shut them and slept until 2:30. Ugh. A lot of sleep. But I don't feel at all like I slept too much. If anything, I'm really tired right now.
Well so after I woke from my nap I finally decided to do something. I'd showered in the morning so I went out and got the CDs to copy stuff onto and another paint brush and a level for hanging pictures and whatnot. And then I decided to paint! So I taped half of my living room and during the day had finally made a decision to use the yellow paint that I'd had in my kitchen at my last place - I still had about half a gallon left - and it's the most perfect sunny yellow ever! I love it! So I painted and it looks so wonderful and I'm so happy with the color and it instantly adds so much light and happiness and brilliance to the room.
Today The German came over and we ventured out in the terrible and oppressive heat to a different restaurant for breakfast. I was in weird mood for most of today and I knew it, I could just feel it. I was slightly irritated for no reason, and felt sometimes like I wanted to go to sleep, sometimes like I wanted to get out, sometimes like I had terrible cabin fever, and sometimes like I wanted to cry. I told him a few times what kind of weird unsettledness I was feeling, 1) because almost as soon as he walked in the door he asked me what was wrong and 2) because he's so good with me when I tell him how I'm feeling.
When we came back from breakfast I was a big ball of sweat and he tried to cuddle and I told him to back off until I cooled off, and I turned down the temperature on the air conditioner and turned it to full blast and even then it was probably an hour before my body temperature was back to normal. Anyway though, he brought the movie Master & Commander so we laid on the couch and watched that, which ended up being a perfect way to spend the afternoon.
After the movie I went to the grocery store with him and then we got on the train, with me getting off first to go to Home Depot and get more yellow paint and also a most wonderful shade of red with a slight deep pink look paint. Right before my stop I leaned in to kiss him and leaned in as well and we gave each other our normal nice kiss, and then he leaned back in and kissed me longer and then briefly grabbed my head and made it a much deeper kiss - it felt very nice! And he called me when he got home and while I was still at Home Depot, just to relate a silly little story to me. And the we also talked tonight for a bit, and he's going to call me much earlier tomorrow morning so I can get to work by 9:15 because I have no idea what's up tomorrow.
Well anyway, I purchased my yellow and red paint and some more painting tape but by the time I got home I was so hot and so tired from the heat, so instead I just laid on my couch with the heavenly AC cooling the room so perfectly (I'm going to sleep on the couch tonight), and the first Harry Potter movie was on so I watched that and then decided to start re-reading the sixth Harry Potter book and made it through the first two chapters before getting really sleepy. And then I played the James and Emma for a bit, and then got ready for bed, and now we're all up to date! :)
Tomorrow I'll hopefully finish painting my living room. And I also have the bathroom almost completely taped for painting. I get so HAPPY when I see my dining room blue and my two living room yellow walls, so I'll be just ecstatic and walking constantly all around my apartment once I have the whole thing painted! That's all for now, I need to sleep so I can wake up very early tomorrow and get to work way earlier than my usual lateness. Here are the lyrics for Crazy Love - so simple and so wonderful!
Crazy Love
I can hear her heart beat for a thousand miles
And the heavens open every time she smiles
And when I come to her that's where I belong
Yet I'm running to her like a rivers song
Chorus:
She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love
She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love
She's got a fine sense of humor when I'm feeling low down
And when I come to her when the sun goes down
Take away my trouble, take away my grief
Take away my heartache, in the night like a thief
Chorus
Yes I need her in the daytime
Yes I need her in the night
Yes I want to throw my arms around her
Kiss her hug her kiss her hug her tight
And when I'm returning from so far away
She gives me some sweet lovin' brighten up my day
Yes it makes me righteous, yes it makes me feel whole
Yes it makes me mellow down in to my soul
Chorus
