Sunday, January 15, 2006

Sleeping, football, and country music

Here's a picture from off my balcony tonight, so pretty!


It's a little after midnight and Florida and Asparagus dropped me off a few minutes ago - I went to their place at 8:30 tonight. Asparagus grilled some steak that was really good, and Florida made sweet potato casserole - I think it's called a casserole but now I forget, but it was so yummy!! And then she'd made some fudge and brownies that we had afterward. We watched the Patriots get beat by Denver, and just hung out and talked and it was wonderful - I always have such fun being with them and I just adore them!! And I love their cats, too!

What else did I do today? Very short answer - I slept. Last night I went to bed at 2 am, just cause I fuck around at night doing shit. And I slept until almost 6 this evening! 16 hours of sleep! I woke at 10 from the alarm clock and went to the bathroom but was so tired so went straight back to bed, telling James and Emma that we had to go back to kitten bed for awhile before food time. And then I woke up around 4 in the afternoon but didn't get out of bed. James came and cuddled for awhile but I was still so tired so I rolled back over and went back to sleep. I finally woke at 5:45 and laid in bed for 15 minutes trying to keep my eyes open, telling myself that I had to stay awake and get up. Even though I've only been up for about 7 hours, I'm sleepy right now, so I don't think I'll have a problem falling asleep in a bit. I had some weird dreams last night/today, too. That tends to happen when one is sleeping for 16 hours!

Yesterday was a fun day, both at work and afterward. I met Violet downtown after work and we took the L and bus west on Grand Ave. We had a leisurely dinner at a little pizza place and talked about a lot of things, which was really good and also very fun! Violet is just wonderful!

After dinner we walked a couple blocks to Betty's Blue Star Lounge, where we were going to listen to a 6-piece country band called True Historians, they are now playing there every Friday from 7-9. Hardly anyone was there and the band was just setting up when we got there. I took some pictures, trying to hold my hand really, really steady! Most didn't turn out, but at least I was able to get a couple that were okay. As the band started playing, Violet's volleyball friend and wife of a band member showed up, and some people she knew, so we had a little group at the table, which was fun! And Special K came a little later, too! The band was pretty good, they played mostly covers - I liked the Johnny Cash stuff! And the music was just fun to listen to! But the best part was when this girl Jessica went up to sing, sometimes singing harmony with the lead singer, and also singing a few songs on her own. She was amazing! She really sang, and put her all into it, and was dramatic, was fun, was just fabulous! I absolutely adored the last song she sang, and asked her afterward what it was - Lucinda Williams, Can't Let Go - which I set to download as soon as I got home! And I'm listening to one of her albums right now!

So anyway, the night was fun! And also, I think this was the first time I've been at a bar since I stopped drinking. Hmmm, yes I think it was! And I did really well! No temptation, but I will say that when the girl sitting next to me got a glass of red wine, the smell was so strong that I couldn't NOT smell it. And wine was my drink of choice. But still, even though the smell reminded me of the millions of times I'd drank said red wine, I wasn't necessarily wanting to drink any now. And as my mind was going through all these things, I was knowing that I wouldn't be drinking any of it anymore. I'm strong now, and it just won't happen again!

Here's a picture from at the bar:


Tomorrow is the big Chicago Bears - Carolina Panthers game. The Bold One and I are going to a little party in Logan Square with the southside guys we always go to White Sox games with. I haven't seen any of them since September, and they're all so much fun and such good guys (all in their 50's, so no romantic prospects) and I'm so excited to see them again!

But first I have to go down to work just to pick up a couple of large folders that I need in order to finish that fucking opinion that I was supposed to finish last weekend. I told EVERYONE at work that I'd have it done on Tuesday (no work on Monday in honor of Martin Luther King Jr.'s birthday), so I'll have tomorrow night and all day Monday to finish the damn thing and have it off my hands and out of my mind. And then onto the next one!

Anyway though, what that means is that I won't be sleeping any 16 hours tonight! My alarm will be set for 9:30 so I can watch my favorite Sunday morning political program while drinking my coffee and waking up! So now, I'm off to bed!

And here's a closer view from off my balcony:

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Written by Caterpillar :: 1/15/2006 12:41:00 AM :: ::


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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi