Sunday, September 25, 2005

My Sunday, and The Fat Project Update

Happy Sunday! Okay, well I only accomplished a couple of the things that I meant to do today, but I'm proud of those and had more fun than I expected to anyway!

My alarm was set for 9:30 a.m. and I slept a little later, but still, I got up at 10:00 a.m. - yay me!!! And The German had called right before I finally got up - the phone was in the living room and my bed was so comfy, so I didn't bother answering even though I heard it ring. Anyway, he came over at noon (he brought six more porn tapes for me - as he converts the VHSs to DVDs, he brings me the old VHSs!) and we headed to Logan Square for brunch at Lula's. We took the Fullerton bus all the way out there, and I love seeing different areas of Chicago other than those I'm used to.

Once on the bus and once while we were waiting to be seated, The German asked me what was wrong - I was being a little pissy with him. Now, the main reason that he was annoying me a little was because of his German-ness: he's so damn direct and so bluntly opinionated and for an example, when we were talking about different areas of the city, he said that MWFB's area is "pffff, very boring, nothing to interest me" (said in his of course, German accent). I pointed out that there are lots of condo buildings around there and little bars and restaurants to which he responded, "you may like it, Tigress, but to me there is nothing there of interest, nothing at all." And he says it in such a poopoo kind of way that I feel like he's saying "it's okay if you like it, since you don't have as high standards as me, but my opinion of you is slightly lowered for not having my wonderful and high standards." I know he doesn't mean it like that, but he says it like that. And even though I have known him now for well over two years, I still don't like that German straight-forwardness. He doesn't have to be SO blunt and honest, and could instead, like Americans, just say something like "yes, it's okay and has gotten better; not my favorite place, but okay." Or SOMETHING so that he doesn't sound so damn harsh!!

Anyway, I pointed all that out to him the second time that he asked me what was wrong, while we were waiting. "Tigress, I'm not saying there's anything wrong with what you think! I'm just stating my opinion!" Me: "I hate that German aspect of you!" And then he pointed out that he's always like that and I don't get upset, and that he knows me well enough to know that something's wrong besides his German-ness. And that made me start to cry. Because he's right, I don't normally get so annoyed with his little things, and I'm taking out whatever is wrong on him by getting annoyed and being testy - and it made me also realize that he's like my family here in Chicago, because I wouldn't feel comfortable being like that around anyone else. I used to do that to my parents, and still do sometimes. And now I did it to him. So, I was teary for two reasons: 1) my realization that The German is my family and I'm so close to him, and he knew something was wrong because he knows me so well, and 2) I didn't even realize anything was wrong, but apparently my issues are still there, though under the surface rather than weeping out of me during mentral moodiness. And the fact that I started crying so quickly added credence to #2.

All was better after that, except my eyes were stinging a little for the next couple hours. But The German held me in a nice, strong hug while we waited to be seated. And then we had a wonderful brunch for the next hour. We split two of their specials, one was cornmeal pancakes with some wonderful compote and grape-like things on top, very yummy! And the other, my favorite one, was - oh shit, I can never remember this stupid name - it had a piece of bread on the bottom, and then some thinly shaved canadian bacon stuff, and then two eggs over easy over that, and some very thinly sliced and I think a bit cooked pickles, and then some cream sauce on top. Oh yum!!! I'm not that big of a sweet fan (the pancakes), but I love eggs and especially this with meat and cream and all that!!! Soooo good!

After we finished, we walked arm in arm, using our umbrellas, to Fullerton to re-catch the bus. Oh - so cutesy - I had on a red shirt, and he had on a navy shirt. When he first came to my house, I picked up my red umbrella and he had his navy one - so we decided to switch cause otherwise it would look too silly with each of us matching our umbrellas. But if I had seen anyone on the street while we were walking after brunch with our opposite-matching umbrellas up, I would have had them take our picture! We took the bus to Lincoln & Halsted, and then walked to a nearby consignment shop to look around. There were a lot of really nice clothes there! Just none in my size, so I figured it had been picked over during the weekend. I'm going to have to check that place out again! He walked me back to my apartment and came up for a few minutes, and brushed James and gave him his rough time of love.

After he left, I went to the store next door and got a toilet brush (I kept forgetting to get one since I moved!) and also some draino for my severely clogged bathtub. So when I got back, I first went to work on my kitchen and threw away everything on the counter and loaded all the millions of items in the dishwasher, and cleaned and scrubbed everywhere. And then I moved my bathroom and cleaned the toilet, the sink, the mirror, poured draino in the tub and came back out to straighten my living room, and after a long time, returned to find the tub mostly unclogged - yay!!!!!!!! So I then fully scrubbed the tub to get all the gross shit out of it. And so now, my place is so pretty, and looks lovely!!

I meant to do laundry too, but that's not going to happen tonight. However, I'm going to go right after I finish typing this and wash a pair of work pants in the sink so I can wear them tomorrow. They smell, and I have no others to wear.

Let's see, what else? I watched BBC World News while going through a couple of catalogs so I could throw them out afterward. And now I'm also waiting for Desperate Housewives to start in 45 minutes. And after that is Grey's Anatomy, with the very yummy Patrick Dempsey!!!!


The Fat Project update:

Wednesday, September 21

1 cup coffee w/ creamer
About 15 Ritz crackers
Half a nectarine
2/3 package of Carr's crackers
5/6ths of a Brie wedge
1 + bottle of Pinot Grigio

Thursday, September 22

Final 1/6th of Brie wedge
About 12 Carr's crackers
1 bag of microwave popcorn - cheese flavored
3 glasses chardonnay (at charity event), 1 glass pinot grigio (at restaurant afterward), 1 glass pinot grigio (at home at end of night)
About 10 tiny appetizers at charity event

Friday, September 23

1 yogurt
5 Ritz crackers
1 cup of leftover pad see eiw with beef
At dinner: 4 glasses frozen margaritas, amazing baked cheese on tortilla, a bunch of tortilla chips, 1 1/2 carne asada enchiladas and a bit of the refried beans
2 glasses merlot

Saturday, September 24

2 1/2 carne asada enchiladas plus leftover refried beans
Spinach artichoke parmisan dip with some tortilla chips
A few mozarella sticks
1 bottle merlot

Sunday, September 25

2 cups coffee w/ cream
1 1/2 pancakes w/ compote and syrup
1 breakfast thing - half slice of bread, 1 egg, sliced pickles, and yummy cream
1/2 slice of cheesecake
1 bottle pinot grigio
Hmmm, and I might have to have a bit of a snack later

Oh - one other good thing: for tomorrow morning I have instant oatmeal to eat, and today I got bread, thinly sliced ham and thinly sliced roast beef, so I'll make myself a healthy sandwiches for lunch from now on! And also, I'll put some frozen broccoli in a tupperware and cook that up as well for lunch! Yay! And tomorrow I don't think I have anything after work, so I'll be going to the gym! Or, if my boss doesn't come in, I'll go during lunch. I'm going to get in shape, and I'm doing a good job of starting!!! I just need to work on the alcohol....

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Written by Caterpillar :: 9/25/2005 07:40:00 PM :: ::


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I'm a 30-year-old sometimes girl and sometimes woman living in Chicago. Over the past year I have faced my biggest demon and won, and as a result I have hope again for wonderful and fabulous things to happen! I'm still learning, growing and always trying to improve myself, but I absolutely love life and think I'm very close to becoming a real butterfly!!!
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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi