Monday, August 01, 2005

Weekend update and 29 candles!

Yesterday was my birthday!!!! Thank you for all the good wishes!!!! I entered the last year of my twenties. Kind of sad, but then again, I get better every year, so I wouldn't wish to go backwards!!

First I'll tell of birthday and then about my Saturday! Warsteiner woke me up yesterday at 9:30 to wish me a happy birthday - he was the first one! And he told me last night when I saw him that he had gotten up much earlier and wanted to call me, but didn't want to wake me up. He said he kept talking himself out of calling, even though he wanted to, but by 9:30 he figured my mom must have called me so he was just going to call and wake me up, too! He's so cute! After he called I went back to sleep for half and hour and then The German called and wanted to take me out for a birthday brunch. He came over a little after 11 and brought me flowers and a little 2006 "Bad Cat" daily calendar, and five more porn tapes! He takes good care of me :) Oh, and I gave him a check for $825, so I only owe him $400 now.

We went up to Tweet for brunch and had mimosas first next door at Big Chicks while we were waiting to be seated at Tweet. Yum! And the bartender even gave me mine for free since it was my birthday! At Tweet, we each had breakfast burritos and they make the most scrumptious ones ever there! I really think that's the best breakfast place in the city when you consider the food and the atmosphere. After brunch we walked for a bit, with me complaining the whole time because my stomach was so full! We eventually caught a bus and almost witnessed a fight between 3 separate crazy men. It started just between two of them - the first guy accused the second guy of pushing him, and the second guy accused the first guy of falling into him. The first guy threatened to kick the second guy's ass if he touched him again. They sat two seats apart and glared at each other. Both were in their 50's and had a few rocks missing. After a few more exchanged words, another crazy man in his 50's, wearing a purple suit, got up and told man number two to be quiet, and then tried kicking him a few times - and it was the kind of kicking that Hugh Grant and Colin Firth do in Bridget Jones's Diary - it was hilarious!! Then Mr. Purple Suit got off the bus and the other two rode in relative peace. It was too funny! There were a few other people who got in with some very different outfits as well. Interesting bus ride!

The German and I got back to my place and hung out a little and gave James and Emma love and play, and by then I was late getting ready for the wedding, so he took his leave and I rushed around madly. Florida Girl and Mr. Asparagus got me a little before 5 and we picked up The Sleeper and The Italian Chef and headed to the South Side for the reception. It was fun and almost everyone from work was there. We watched my boss and his wife dance and secretly laughed at them - they have spent nearly $10,000 - yes, that's right, not a typo - on dance lessons over the past two years. But neither of them are naturals or have rhythm, so they just look kind of silly! And there was the silliest guy there, super skinny, dressed all in white - baggy white jeans and a white buttondown - missing some teeth, and with big cowboy boots on. He knocked some guy in the head to catch the garter and then really thought he was hot shit after that - kept sauntering around like a cowboy, going up to every girl and showing them the garter around his arm and I know asking them to dance, and always getting dissed. And following the family into family photos and jumping into them! He was the funniest thing I've ever seen at a wedding! Seriously a character out of movie - and I took lots of pictures of him and even a couple little videos!

Our crew of five left at around 10:30 - Florida Girl and I couldn't stop yawning! Warsteiner and I had planned that I'd stay at his place, so after dropping of The Sleeper and The Italian Chef, the three of us got back to their place at about 11:45 so I went straight to Warsteiner's and we had some fun and then went to sleep. Today I am ridiculously tired. My eyes are watery and hurting and also I seem to be coming down with a cold. My nose is running and shit is in the back of my throat so I keep coughing to get it out and every once in awhile making very disgusting noises! I can't wait to go home after work and relax, do laundry, clean a little, and then SLEEP! I am worthless with work today. And I need a good sleep so I can be all perfect tomorrow for THE BIG SECOND INTERVIEW!!!!!

My Saturday:
I slept late after the big feast on Friday night and made it to Florida Girl's at 1:30. I tried on some dresses on the off chance that I could actually wear a dress to the wedding, but dresses are just so hard to find! Mr. Asparagus came home from golfing (he hates this name I gave him, by the way, even though I thought it would be funny, so I may change it in the future to Gym Guy or something like that, but I haven't decided), and a little later Warsteiner stopped up. Later I went down to his place and we hung out there and things got pretty hot. Afterward we went to the festival Taste of Lincoln. We found a great spot right by the fence and near the stage where Warsteiner said two good groups were going to play. I also spotted a guy who I went to law school with and his wife, so we hung out with them.

We were there from about 4:30 to almost 10 - long day! Warsteiner and I finally went to find some food around 9:00 and after we came back the other two left to get food, while we guarded our space. It was at this time that I asked him whether he was still seeing any of his ex-girlfriends, and I said "because somehow I think Dawn was at your place last week Sunday." And first he said "you know her name now, you have spies all over the place!" and then told me that she had been at a friend's place who lives right by him, so she had called and BOTH of them had stopped by for twenty minutes. And he said he'd have told me about her. He was very honest and open and said he also had lunch with her on Friday cause it was her last day at Abbott, and then he probably won't talk to her again or not for a long time, or at least he has no interest in keeping in touch. So he made me feel much better about that whole issue.

Then he talked to me about his family, and about various siblings. He told me that he doesn't get along with two of them - a brother, the third oldest, I think he's probably around 43 years old. Warsteiner said the guy had just always been an ass to him his whole life, and just wasn't a nice person. He said he'd tell me some specific things sometime. But he spent most of the time talking about his sister, I'll just call her M, who is two above him. He said she's always made bad judgments and she got a divorce a couple years ago, but has two kids from that marriage. What has really upset him, though, is that for the past year she has been allegedly having an affair with a married man who has five children, even though she always denies the affair. Warsteiner's sort of been been put in a bad situation, cause he went to college with the brother of the jilted wife, although he hardly knew the guy. But a few months back this guy called him and asked if he could talk to his sister because this guy's sister was trying to save her marriage. But Warsteiner doesn't even really talk to M since this affair came to light. It's also hurting his relationship with his sister S, who is right between him and M and best friends with M. Now, the good thing is that Warsteiner said you take a marriage vow, it's a vow and it's forever, and you stick with each other through thick and thin. But he said the word "sacrament" a few times, and that kind of scares me - being that it's so Catholic. And I understand the moral thing of staying married, but sometimes it just doesn't work. And sometimes you fall out of love. Of course, I believe it takes work for a marriage so you always have to be conscious of that and work at it. But if a marriage really isn't working, and you've tried therapy and you've tried other things, it's okay to call it quits, I think. And often the children will be better off with the parents apart than together fighting or hating each other. And also, if it's not working, each part of the couple has the right to try to find happiness. But he brings the religion into it a little too much, and I really think he believes a couple should never ever divorce once they have taken that vow. The whole "sacrament" talk is VERY Catholic. But he's a good person. Only VERY upset at his sister. And when I brought up the counter-argument that I have detailed above, I premised it with "you're not going to like this" and he said "I know what you're going to say, and no, I don't like it." A bit stubborn and close-minded. But he didn't get angry at me, per se, he said he just gets really worked up when talking about his sister. I'll definitely be exploring all of these things more! Anyway, after the festival, both of us were so tired and a bit drunk, and wanted to sleep, so he gave me money and put me in cab, since if he walked me home it would be another hour before we would get to sleep!

So there was Saturday. This morning Warsteiner dropped me off at home. He's supposed to be going to Michigan today for his vacation, but he said he feels guilty about work and it's so busy now and he feels bad leaving. He was going to work from home this morning and he said there was a status meeting at 10:30 and then he'd know whether he was needed. So I don't know whether he is now at work is on his way to Michigan. He does work too much. On Saturday he said a few times how he felt guilty, and each time I pointed out that work will go on without him, and it's just work, etc. He does love his job, he's said that a few times. And that's good. He just can't love it too much. He's got to be willing to take wonderful and long vacations with me!!!!

My nose now won't stop running. My eyes are watering all over. And my throat has drainage in it. Wonderful! I'm leaving early today.

I'm posting this now and going out with The Italian Chef to do some errands. And maybe the sun will make me feel better...

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Written by Caterpillar :: 8/01/2005 12:54:00 PM :: ::


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I'm a 30-year-old sometimes girl and sometimes woman living in Chicago. Over the past year I have faced my biggest demon and won, and as a result I have hope again for wonderful and fabulous things to happen! I'm still learning, growing and always trying to improve myself, but I absolutely love life and think I'm very close to becoming a real butterfly!!!
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♥ I think that the most beautiful women I've ever met are the ones that know who they are, have stories to tell, ideas to share, wisdom to impart and love the skin they're in. No one can love us as we love ourselves. No one can take away our beauty and our dignity when we own those things. To me confident=beautiful. :: CeeCi

♥ I'd been feeling a little blue (for no particular reason) when I began thinking about things like attention, age and body image. Suddenly, it washed over me. I see people looking at me and I see them reacting. I began thinking about the times I notice the attention and realized its the days I'm strutting, the days I'm open and holding my head up. This got me to thinking further. How I perceive myself is what I show to others...People don't realize it, but they show the world everything about themselves in the way they move and act, in the words they say and the way they say them. A little confidence can lead to a lot of confidence. :: CeeCi

♥ When we believe in ourselves the world is an entirely different place and our place in it feels right and happy and healthy. :: CeeCi

♥ Remember that something incredibly wonderful is always possible!

♥ There are moments that are wonderful, if you let them be.

♥ Being distrustful put me in a very lonely place, a place filled with doubt and hypervigilance. I'm grateful I've learned to trust again, because in learning to do it, I learned to trust myself. :: CeeCi

♥ We're all a work in progress. I believe we will be until the day our lives end. Why fight it? I love the changes I experience. Some are certainly easier and more enjoyable than others, yet I wouldn't stop the process for any thing in the world. :: CeeCi

♥ We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey, or miss the chance to see a rainbow on the way :: Gloria Gaither

♥ Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed :: Storm Jameson

♥ Love is everything. It is the reason we are here, and the wonder we take with us wherever we go.

♥ Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow :: Mary Anne Radmacher

♥ Just live in the moment, the moment you're in. Don't live two days from now. Don't live two hours in advance. Live now. And appreciate what you have now. Don't go any further. You have this moment. This second. Breathe it. Enjoy it. Live in it. :: Open Eyes

♥ Leap, and the net will appear.

♥ I've learnt that when we express our deepest feelings, even though we may stammer or be unable to find the right words, it always pays. It pays to be authentic.

♥ There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness :: Carl Jung

♥ I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death :: Robert Fulghum

♥ You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens. :: Ethel Barrymore

♥ Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. :: Carl Jung

♥ I will try to be as honest as I can with myself. That is all that is required of me. I'll keep admitting and opening my hidden box of fears, hurts and insecurities, again and again, until I know each one of them by their first name. :: Anu

♥ It struck me that there is amazing beauty everywhere. Does it matter where you are or who we're encountering? There is magic all around us. The fact that we're alive, the fact that we're living in this place and time. The fact that we've met the people we've met, all of it, every bit of it, only contributes to the wonder that is life. :: CeeCi

♥ No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the starts, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit. :: Helen Keller

♥ Half of doing anything is believing that you can.

♥ Often God has to shut a door in our face, so that he can subsequently open the door through which he wants us to go. :: Catherine Marshall

♥ Even if it burns a little low at times, the secret of life is to always keep the flame of hope alive.

♥ The three grand essentials of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for.

♥ Some people will say that you are going the wrong way, when it is simply a way of your own.

♥ Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion. :: Martha Graham

♥ Life is a series of new beginnings, and in every ordinary moment there are a thousand miracles to behold.

♥ Don't let the approval of others determine your belief in yourself.

♥ When it's all said and done, when all the opinions have been uttered, preached, shouted, and shared, there is only one thing we can do: From this moment on...love.

♥ When you're stuck in a spiral, to change all aspects of the spin you need only to change one thing. :: Christina Baldwin

♥ You have to look for the joy. Look for the light of God that is hitting your life, and you will find sparkles you didn't know were there.

♥ Be the change you wish to see in the world... :: Gandhi

♥ Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

♥ We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it - pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is. :: Viggo Mortensen

♥ Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible. :: Cadet Maxim

♥ Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!

♥ What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? :: Unknown

♥ To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. :: David Viscott, M.D

♥ Right now it feels like:...no dream will ever remain unfulfilled...no desire will ever remain unanswered...no tear goes unnoticed and no effort wasted...the hills are alive and so are we...each moment is fresh and waiting to happen...and there will be garbage like situations all around...but it is upto us to light mud lamps in it...and glow in our own acceptance and appreciations... :: Anu

♥ I struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough at times. Usually, its because I'm pushing it too hard and have depleted my reserve. Yet, I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how heavy or thin, how young or old I appear to others it's what I feel on the inside that glows through. If I could give every person on this planet just one gift it would be the unwavering knowledge that they are beautiful and worthy of every good thing the universe holds. :: CeeCi

♥ It's easier to buy into the negative things we conjure about ourselves than the positive things. Knowing that is the first step towards changing the thoughts that keep us unhappy. With time moving forward, why stay trapped in the past? All we have is right here and right now, I intend to make the most of it! :: CeeCi